the nights caught up to me
and reminded me i am not 16 anymore,
all nighters and 2 hours sleep will take their toll
to the point where i will give up everything.
i doubted myself,
i doubted the future.
the hours refused to catch up to me and passed like minutes.
i missed you.
i needed you.
but this illness screamed at me
until the tears fell
and i left myself alone.